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How do you handle your relationship with your parents? :)

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Do you believe in love at first sight?

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sa tacloban ako. :) kaw?

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I'm a certified ELF,
by heart and by soul.
I will always PROM15E to 13ELiEVE in Super Junior.
I PROM15E to L♥VE Super Junior with all my heart and soul.
I will dedicate my self and most of my time to Super Junior.
I'll make them my inspiration in studies, in life and in love. ♥
I also promise to support them with all I can and might forever.

I L♥VE SUPER JUNIOR..
~ that they became my priorities..
~ that they were the only ones who run in my mind all day..
~ that they make me happy even for just their single smile. :)
~ that they became reasons why sometimes I cry and get depressed..
~ that they make me smile that easily..
~ that they make me look so crazy because when I see them I'm like.. "WAAAAAAAAH!!"
~ that they make me drool over their cute and hot pictures.. :DD
~ that they make me doodle their names on a notebook..
~~ that they inspired me to go on through life, to fight and solve my problems, to become strong and be independent, to show the world what I truly am, to know how to love truly.
I love them so much, MORE than anything and everything in this world.

Do your best Super Junior oppa's~! FiGHTiNG~!!

- one of your loving ELF,
Lee Cruz ♥

diary introduction.

I'm Lee Cruz.
14 years living and breathing on earth.
March14 is my day, born in Riyadh, K.S.A.
but I'm from the Philippines.. and currently,
I'm studying here..
I'm an incoming junior high school student that
wants/hopes/wishes to finish her studies..
To become a great lawyer, photographer, pianist, and singer..
I wish I could go to Korea that easily, because I love Koreans that much.. and I don't even know why..
Maybe it's because of Super Junior.. (:
I love Super Junior with all my heart.. and I'll give up, anything and everything for them/just to see them face to face.
I also have adorable and true friends, we are called Marilag. :)
I love them so much, and they're more than enough for me..
No one could ever replace them here in my heart!
In my heart, there's Super Junior, Marilag/Friends, Family and especially God.
Even though I think about my friends, Super Junior and anything or anyone a lot.. I don't forget about God. because, if it wasn't for him..
I wouldn't be able to live, I wouldn't be able to meet Super Junior and my friends, I wouldn't be here typing this thing or what ever you call it..

Sometimes I'm selfish, I only think about my own good. To the extent that I'm hurting people that I love and everything..
Well, I don't know.. That's what my mom tells me.
That I'm selfish, I only think about my own happiness. So yea, I realized, my mom was right.
Now I'm thinking, maybe I should give up my dreams to see Super Junior for now..
I should just think about the people and the future for now. OUR future not MY future..
because if I think about going to Korea and watching Super Junior's concert, that would cost high.
And I wouldn't be able to go to school anymore, since Papa left us..
We don't have that much money now. The money that Papa saved for me, is quite running out.
It's only 2010, and there're more years to come in our lives. We need money to survive..

It's May 4, 2010. and it's Seldon's birthday tomorrow.. She's in Manila right now.
Bea, Rolaine and the others are there too. While, on the other hand, ME, is here in Tacloban.
Waiting for the STUPID CALL from the DFA. I really wish the DFA will call. Because it's my last hope to go there. And actually, right now, I changed my mind.. "What if we don't go there?" "Will something be lost/gone?", I don't know. But I miss them so much, I wanna see my friends. :(
I want to hug them tight! I want to laugh with them again. :( Is that wrong?
I really want to go there, but the situation can't make us go there.
We still have to wait for the DFA to call. I wish they would call this month.

Yeah, Rolaine told me she wanted to go to the concert of UKISS is with me. She said she'll be the one to pay everything for the concert. I also wanted to watch that concert. But how can I go to Manila? Money is our number 1 problem. Well, you see. I love freebies. I asked her again and again if she was sure. She said YES. Of course, it was so embarassing. Look at the price of the tickets and the light sticks and everything! It's costs more than 1k! Ok, let's get straight to the point.
I didn't want to go to Manila for the concert. Well, partly yes. I wanted to go to Manila so that I could be with my precious friends one more time. I won't be able to be with them for i don't know how long. I really want to see them. Even though the concert's freebie or not. I'll still go to Manila just to see them. IF I CAN.

Recently, before Rolaine went here to the Philippines. (she was in Riyadh) I was waiting for her to go online. Because I don't know. It's our routine. :). Well, anyways, SOMEONE told me.. "don't bug her. she'll think you're too excited to talk to her because she'll buy you tickets for the concert". Know why I included this in this post? because I wanted that SOMEONE to know that I'm always excited to talk to Rolaine even if she doesn't buy me tickets or anything. I'm contented with her being by my side even if I need her or not. That SOMEONE has to know that even if she's a part of my life or important to me now, she won't be able to replace MY PRECIOUS FRIENDS in my heart.
(PS. I don't hate you SOMEONE. I just want to explain to you everything that's in my head and heart at the moment you told me those lines.)

Honestly, I'm crying right now. I started crying while I was typing the part about how selfish I am. or whatever.. I don't know. I really want to follow my heart. But isn't that too selfish?..
See? I'm being selfish. >.< I'll be a bad person if I follow my heart. I love my family so much.
Especially my mom. I don't want to disappoint her. But I can't stop disappointing her.
Sometimes, I think of, SUICIDE. If I die, my mom's problems will be minimized. I would be able to help her that way.. I don't know what decision to make.. I'm confused. I wish this piece of broken glass in my heart will be removed that easily.

I WISH I COULD TURN BACK TIME AND CHANGE EVERYTHING THAT HAS HAPPENED BEFORE MY DAD DIED. >.<

- Lee Cruz.

my OWN . ♥

obsessed and inlove at the same time ? well , i think that's the PERFECT term for a GiRL like me .

I'll tell you the short summary of my story , i'm sorry if i'll be using Tagalog terms or sentences here. I'm having a hard time translating tagalog words or sentences to english. :)

btw , i'm Liana Cruz . some people call me Yana , Lian or Lee .
I moved here in the Philippines last July 8,2009 . I came from Riyadh, K.S.A.
I'm currently here in Tacloban City, Leyte . I'm studying at Liceo del Verbo Divino or Divine Word University. I'm an incoming junior student . I'm already at the age of 14 .

enough about my perso info .

I met him at school . I actually really had a hard time memorizing my classmates' names .
Due to their number . I think we were 45 all in all in our section last school year . I really didn't notice him , until he had his hair cut . How amusing right ?

I really liked his hairstyle that time , because it really looked good on him . I also noticed him because of his mysterious effect and everyting . I think I liked him on October 15, 2009 .

Actually , it was just a PLAiN CRUSH , that time . Nothing more special .

Exactly on December 17,2009 , i bought a SMART sim card so that I could text him .
and on December 18,2009 (our Christmas party) , my bestfriend , Janine Chloe , was with him .
She told him I was having a HUGE CRUSH on him . Then he was like , (in waray dialect) "balit gad?" (in tagalog) "oh?talaga? / di nga?" (in english) "oh?really?" , then my BFF answered YES .

After that Janine went to me and said , (in waray) "Gamita lanai tim smart! meada ada matawag haim!" (in tagalog) "gamitin mo muna kaya smart mo! may tatawag ata sa'yo eh!" (in english) "Use your smart! There maybe someone who'll call you!" . Then she went back outside .

And me, whose so curious , changed my sim card from globe to smart . When I was staring blankly at my phone . I WAS SHOCKED ! Someone's calling . know who ? HiM !! I was really nervous and everything . My hands were shaking and my voice too ! I answered the phone ,

"H-hello?"

"Hello!"

"Where are you?"

"I'm in the classroom , you?"

"Just here outside."

"Ooh."

"Where's Janine?"

I was wondering that time , because I know they were together that time . so I answered ,

"I don't know ."

Then I went outside to look for them , I saw him and Janine . He saw me too . Then he hung up the phone .

After that our Christmas Party started , I was one of the intermission numbers that time .
I sang my favorite song and actually that song was dedicated to him . Angel by Leona Lewis .

After how many days , I dreamt of him . OVER and OVER again . As in , for one week I dreamt of him for 4-5 times . and almost all of my dreams were sweet and everything .

I can’t help but fall in love with that guy . I didn’t want to miss class because of him , I studied hard because of him , I improved in school because of him ! myGawd . He became my inspiration in just 6 months . He did a lot to make me strong and he taught me things even though he doesn’t know anything about it .

February 14,2010 .

My brother , Yousef Clyde , texted him . He said he was Lexie Anne and he also said that he was attending into another school . Then I decided to exchange sim cards with my brother . That time I just bought a new sim card . When he called , I hung up the phone , because I was getting nervous . I’m scared that he might find out that it was me . then he called me again .

This time I answered the phone ..

“hello?”

But I wasn’t saying anything , he just keeps on saying hello .

Then my grandma called me , “Lian! Let’s eat !”

I got really nervous so I hung up the phone again . Then he texted , “are you gay?” , I laughed so hard . I think he heard my brother’s voice .

I replied , “nope , I’m not ! call me again ! “

“I’ll call you next time , when you have your voice already .”

“But I really have a voice , I’m just shy .”

“yea right . I don’t have any load right now , I’m not unlicall . I’ll call next time.”

Our convos continued . He asked me if a have a boyfriend , I said I don’t have one .

Then after that he told me , he doesn’t know how to court a girl . I was shocked and I didn’t believe what he said . HiM , a PLAYBOY ? doesn’t know how to court ? I don’t think so .

“teach me how.”

“you ask her if it’s ok for you to court her.”

“can I court you?”

“whoa . are you asking me?”

“yea, can I?”

“ok.”

“then what’s next?”

“wait for her answer , it depends on the girl if she wants you to be her boyfriend.”

“do you want me to be your boyfriend?”

Of course , any girl who would be asked by her crush will answer yes right ? So I answered yes .

“then what?”

“then your official if she says she wants you to be her boyfriend.”

“really? So are we official?”

“what? U-uh. Ok. Yea.”

So our convo goes on and on . Then at around 6 pm on that same day , he called me .

“what do you wanna ask?”

“nothing , just said that out of nowhere.”

“oh, really? Ok.”

“ei , can you call later? I just have to do something. I’ll just text you.”

“why? Where are you?”

“ I just came from downtown.”

“ah ok. I’ll call you later.”

“bye””bye”

Then after that I changed my clothes immediately. And texted him , “you can call now.”

“what’s your real name again?”

Ohmy , I got nervous again ..

“Lexie Anne Ayonon” I’m a big bad liar . >.<

“oh , what school?”

“ASEAN”

“aaaah. Ok. Cool . hey , I have a wound on my face, I won’t be able to see you now.”

“it’s ok , I understand.”

“where did you get that wound?”

“from basketball .”

“oh, I get it.”

“it hurts, I’m just forcing myself to talk. It’s under my lips that’s why.”

“oh, it’s ok if we hung up. If you can’t endure the pain.”

“ok, let’s talk on text.”

“ok, bbye”

“bye, loveyou!”

“loveyoutoo!”

That time I feel like I was in heaven. CLOUD9 ! haha ! I think I’m going to faint that time. KILIG talaga.

Then one time , I asked him .

“what you doing?”

“watching tv.”

“what’re you watching?”

“PBA.(basketball)”

“ah, so your addicted to basketball?”

“nope, not really. My girlfriend is more important than basketball. You’re more important than basketball.”

AGAIN , I felt that KILIG moment . haha ! what can I say ? I can’t help it !

TO BE CONT.

EXCITED . ♥

Gawd . am so effin' excited about this Closing Party or Farewell party of ours .

haha ! I woke up 3 am just to buy that freakin' fish . :)) how cool right ?
i just slept for 5 hours ! nice .. well , i don't know why i'm that excited .
well maybe because i'm hoping and wishing he'll come with us .

that's LiFE ! hmmmmm ..

i'm really thinking of posting my stories here on Blogger ..
and i really want to POST it here until it's finished ..
hehe .

till next BLOG ! i'll update you people all about my life . :)

my SUMMER and everything ! ok ?
please do take care and God bless !

[. GOD is my SAVING GRACE .]

- Lee . ♥

SUMMER

waaaa . it's SUMMER !
i can feel the heat .
i'm sure , my skin will really be much more darker this time !
haha . i don't really know if i can survive it this summer ..
because , i won't be using the computer often ..
you know , BiLLS and STUFF . :)

well , it's okay ! i'm going to have a workout .
so that i would be thinner or slimmer this time .

GAWD . i'm so gonna miss OBEDiENCE .
huhu . by the way , Obedience was and still is my section
when i moved to Liceo del Verbo Divino ,
i'm a sophomore student , and now an incoming junior student .

well , back to the topic , i'll really miss OBEDiENCE .
the memories , the fights , the LOOOOONG WAR , the funny moments ,
the KALOKOHANS , the days when all of the teachers get mad at us ,
the way we laugh at Renn Michael when we call him 'UNGGOY' ,
the way Khen Maderazo looks gay ! :)) , the DiRTY but memorable CLASSROOM ,
the way Jason Ripalda makes us laugh , the way Jason Baltar fix his hair ,
the VOiCE of Jerrylyn Villegas , the VOiCE of Martin Fiel early in the morning ! ,
the way Aileen Niña L'S O L . haha ! , and so much more !

TiME really FLiES so fast . especially when you're happy .
that's proven already . hehe .

At first , i really didn't want to go to that school or to study in that school .
but i realized , maybe God really wanted me to be with the Obedience
and be a part of them . Eveything happens for a reason right ?

i also realized , if i weren't enrolled in that school , i wouldn't have met
Janine Chloe dela Cruz , my bestfriend . i wouldn't have met Emmylou Quennie Peliño , my teacher in Science . and i wouldn't have met ..

Nickole Renzo S. Quiña .

i'm really gonna miss them , especially HiM .
well , i'm glad i told him my feelings before the school year ended .
i think i'm free . but i still LOVE him .
i did everything for him , i put all my efforts and hardworkings on him .
i even HURT myself because of him .

Gahd . i can't believe this would just happen in 8 months .
so fast . i haven't even had a personal conversation with him before this school year ended .
in just 8 months , i had saved alot of memories in my mind .

i saved happy , sad , painful , problematic memories in my head and heart . :)
but i'm greatful to have experienced those memories , because if it wasnt
for those memories , i wouldn't have been much stronger and much more wiser than before .

for me , this school year is the best ! even if i had or we had so many problems .
atleast we got throught , i got through it with my bestfriend(Janine) and Teach. Emz .

and i'm happy to say that , OBEDiENCE will be a part of me for the rest of my life .
so as MARiLAG , my TRUE and FOREVER friends . :)

- Lee ♥